*note...if you could all see the poem on the original page it was written that night, with all the mistakes...or see how I struggled to find the words I was looking for...words I know, but just can't seem to remember anymore...if you saw the first version of this typed in the new thread box...before I went back and fixed the many mistakes...if you felt my utter frustration and fear at what is to become of me at age 36, with a husband, 4 children and our 6 mth old grandaughter and her Mom,(my son's fiancee) to take care of here...then you would know why I sit here crying. I cry beacuse of what is happening to my mind now...as if the rest isn't enough!!!-Lupus/Fibromyalgia/Raynauds/Sjogrens Syndrome/Meralgia Paresthecia/Corneal Erosions/Petalouce Eustacian Tube Disorder/Antiphospholipids Syndrome/and on...and on...and on...
I take 20 pills a day now...and for what? They too are maknig me sick with side effects and sometimes severe reactions like the one that sent me to the hospital in June of 2002. I live in a catch 22. At least until it kills me that is...
Cathy
