Because of You

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I'm afraid of trusting other people
because they might be like the monster you are.

My personality is so badly developed
because you made it seem okay to be selfish.

The art that I try to get better at are shit
because you weren't able to spend time reviewing them.

I was afraid of falling in love with someone
because I knew you would hurt me otherwise.

All the childhood bullying left me weak
because you would've hit me for defending myself.

My emotions are so unstable that I have no control
because you know all the secrets to break my strength.

I was never able to truly understand how others felt
because you never opened up to me to help you.

I never knew what being happy felt like
because you always treated me with misery.

My days are filled with so much despair
because you were never there enough to make me laugh.

The personality of a loving mother doesn't exist in me
because you were the mother any child doesn't deserve.

I'm the broken person that I am today
because of you!

Author's Notes/Comments: 

1/1/2013

I wrote this as an ode about my mother. I hate her, she's pretty much the reason why I'm the broken and shitty person I am today and why I've lost so much. And she's also the person that kicked me out of her house and I had to move to a different state to live with my dad.

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i can really relate to this

i can really relate to this one!! I really hope your okay and getting away from her has helped in some sense!! Im no longer living with my mother but my father is just as bad, i finally found a happy home with my sister! But she kicked me out 2 days ago because i cant get along with her abusive partner!! It just makes me wonder why was i dealt this hand? But ill figure it and hopefully some luck will come both our ways:):)

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I hope you'll be alright soon

I hope you'll be alright soon and I'm still dealing with the broken pieces within me. And I do hope that luck will cross our paths soon too