joy ~ with thin strips of pain
when my lover calls my name
hold me close but stay away
and leave my heart alone
sunshine filled with shadowed clouds
my heart is no longer proud
i scream your name but not out loud
since your time is not mine
if i go or if you stay
silent in this deadly game
will smiling take away the pain
or hide it from the truth ...
a truth that we no longer see
because it's mixed with fantasy
and what's left now is disbelief
in things that were not there.
© Debbie Finlay