*Once Again I'm In A Losing Battle*

 

 October.20.2003

 Trisha Barrek Hopkins

 

Once again I'm in a losing battle

Lost with no place to hide

As I walk I feel my bones rattle

Once again my heart has died

These thoughts to stop I've tried

 

Day and night I just go on crying

I have no more strength

Just let me go on dying

Once again to myself I fight

To myself I keep lying

This battle of mine is so long in length

 

Truth is no one is out there 

Who will for me go that extra mile

No one for me to care

I just want this frown to go away

So I can smile 

But nothing nice people can say

 

To show I mean something

To let me know they hear

But It's just games they play

Being alone is my biggest fear

Hurt is what I feel everyday

 

God is so unfair

What is left is hatered

To my heart you bring

A lasting tear

 

No one with me 

Wants to forever be by my side

No one wants to stay

When they see me they turn around to hide

With me they don't want to be 

 

I must remain alone

Till my dying day

And my heart

It turned back to stone

No more do I care

What people have to say

Because getting close to me will anyone dare

 

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Carcass's picture

This one

We do have similar writing styles and I think this one could be transformed into a tragic song.  What I have learned while making songs is that sometimes you have to trim the poem to fit with the music.  It's probably the most painful part of songmaking. 

 

"To show I mean something

To let me know they hear

But It's just games they play

Being alone is my biggest fear

Hurt is what I feel everyday"

 

My favorite stanza out of the poem.  I struggle with this situation much myself.

KindredSpirit's picture

I liked it

But not the part
That hurts me.
Or you either
For that matter.