IT'S SAD SOMEHOW

There is an

air of impersonalism

lingering between U & I

as we sit

facing each other

but not facing

this

this that once was

and

has now become

more like

business

the agenda to which I've

chosen for us to abide by

unbeknownst 2 U

>speak briefly

>get 2 the point

>laugh a bit

> be on point

so later

this doesn't feel

& doesn't allow us

2 feel shit

so I say

say I

so...

sitting across from you

my eyes barely recognize

the beauty of your Adonais like features

I keep my head down

peering mostly through dangling locks

cuz truth b told

I just want 2 stare

yet this is now

business

>get 2 the point

I set the wheels in motion

tugging at your sweats

there is no need for boxers

glad you've learned

I only allow myself 2

do, what I do,

4 U, 2 U

>I'm on point

4 me, 2 me

I've lost some control

of being emotionally

out of control

I give, U get

U get, I give

there will be no exchange

of those intimate

kisses, caresses, or words

just a

Thank You

4 the business

& a hug

and I would rather

TAKE

IT

THAN BE

WITHOUT U

EVER

It's sad somehow

yet I'm content

by your PRESENCE

with your CONVERSATION

by your LAUGHTER

with your SMILE

which remains hidden behind

those fascinating brown

eyes

all qualities

that cannot be

licked

sucked

kissed

caressed

or fucked...

I'm content

BUT would rather

straddle you

and U

let me

lay my head

slightly tilted on your shoulder

so my lips

brush lightly against the

curve of your neck

and

U slide caring hands up the

knotches of my spine

and

I shiver

as U hold me

so close

that U can feel my

eyelashes

tickle the softness

of your cheek

as they blink back tears

cuz

I KNOW

U make me internally joyful

sans penetration

I just want U

2 rest yourself

into me

this way

I want 2 melt

within your security

lay your head

on MY shoulders

let ME have it

whatever it is

let ME comfort U

for whatever reason

U seek solace

ease your mind

I want 2 be

your

easy

chair

where U come

& sit when your

mind wants 2 just run

I just want us

2 b

2 exist within each other

2 b so

still

and hear

every trickle

of perspiration induced

rain that

glides down

these worried windows

they are concerned

and cry for us

tonight

and the

last night

we met in this

park  ing  lot

b/cuz they know

that

business

this evening

will be

>brief

>2 the point

>on point

>w/some laughter

yet

w/out

feeling

those emotions

that are

NOT

INDICATIVE

of the

business







I love U

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Written 4/16/04
My heart still feels this love deep, regardless of how I try to trick it,push it to the side,comfort it, or mask its pain ,this love insists that I persist.U know when U r elated inside and U know how it feels 2 b emptied from th core. I never want 2 feel empty.Don't turn me loose.

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You are a brilliant, did I mention brilliant, writer, I get goosebumps when I read you......You are definitely Brown Sugar..... I love this poem, as I love all your work, you get to the heart of matters with truth, and descrpition.....Take care Baby Girl......