We Never Happened.

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You say I am immature
cocky and irrational.
I can't make you happy.
You belittle my traits that make me who I am.
well I never really argued or pointed out yours.
Its about time since I am entitled to an opinion.

Am I really good enough for you?
that enough of thinking like that.
Thats enough of that talk
Its a metter of willpower and overcoming.
I broke many addictions and it took me many lessons to get here.
You wont set me back with your foolish ways
Self destructive and abrasive no control of your actions.
Ill disregard that act and wont look back.
Im falling and breaking over the feelings I gained and lost
none of witch you were entitled to giving me.
It was all in vein some times I try to take it back.
Everything we been through. My mentality is still intact
yours is somewhat wack. The eighteenth notch on a bedpost
is not a place to be proud. Its enough I dealt with your pain and stress.
Coped with it better than you could ever detest.

I pulled the trigger on our relationship once.
You bribed me with sex as if it was some type of test.
took it back regretfully but grew to feel safe again.
Broke down the wall burnt it for comfort for I felt content.
ripped it from my clutches when you said just friends.
Friends who had sex. lousy half ass passionate sex.
Well I took it for granted for now I need to be tested
I never seen the signs until it was over.
The tears quit flowing and then I quit caring
It was a day until I recovered witch seems to be not enough time on my watch
I should of taken months it just shows how much sense you made
during my misfortune of letting you in.
WE never happened For I feel as if It was a waste of time.

Party, pick you up. hardly ever sober
as I hardly ever have time to for anything but work and your lousy company
I gave you everything with little in return just a sense of sanity
witch I must have been too late for I found very little.
I broke my addictions I recovered. You know nothing overcoming
I just listened to the illogical opinionated far from factual biased shit coming out your mouth.
In hopes you may understand as You say I never listened.
I never did for it was all just irrational thoughts and pointless sanless fragments of thoughts.
I have no time for insecurity bad brain wiring at this time. I cleaned my hands of all of this
and the temptations of addictions I get when I am around you are too much for me to respect you.
a cold case crazy file. Unopened because people quit listening and caring to find the problem
because the problem was within your own self conscious.

I was wrong to believe you were ever a perfect asset in my life.
I reject your feelings and friendship for you are below me
below me in responsibility maturity and moral descency
I wont have this or be around this Its my life I decide who is in it and you are left in my rear veiw mirror.
This is closure. Enjoy your exposure to my true feeling and anger as you wallow in your room
with little social interactions as you call open rides with your body
for transportation and financial income are completely absent in your life.
the sad truth which I still cannot comprehend is its a decision you chose
you stay that way. Ill prosper north in my future as you just not so slowly wash up south over time.

This is end of an era end of chapter for I enrolled into college after our break.
For me happiness will still follow unfortunate for you as you struggle to keep level headed
as you look for the next mans tool to swallow.