PostPoems Be Artistic. Be Creative. Be Inspired!

I feel so selfish.
I have this powerful and beautiful gift
to express myself.
many lack this, Its not a common trait.
to weave words to show any emotion.
So little do I try and move others.
I am doing it all wrong.
I complain about my day and move on.
It probably is so repetitive to listen too.
I have writers block now. For I have had a moving day.
It started terrible. So bad I left work early.
But I had a talk with my boss.
a person who looks out for me.
she has every reason to hate me and fire me.
She needs too actually I am the first to admit.
my mouth is not very timid. and I am explosive.

That is not the point.
The point is, she seen through me.
seen my ups and downs no my faults and my loves.
Yet I never take the time to get to know anyone.
everything is so one sided. I am almost feeling regret how I perceive conversation.
I am capable. and suitable for anything. she said.
My head is my worst enemy. I told her not of my bipolar.
but she told me of it and I could only sit and listen.
For once I had a serious conversation.

I said I struggle getting up and fighting through the day let alone the rest of my life.
That I am angry for never achieving anything I set out to achieve.

"quit looking for approval, please yourself.
ask someone about there day."

this is all so foreign to me.
I realized she was right.
so right, it hurts to say I am wrong.
I have no comeback to this.
No argument.

I heard her story and found its much worse.
what can I say, I didnt know what to say.
I couldnt even say sorry. But I know its not what she wanted to hear.

"make yourself happy. do what you think is right."
quit dwelling on approvals you will never receive.
my mind is racing my head doesnt know how to perceive this.
My judgement is cloudy but there is something deeper in this conversation.
I cant put my finger on it but I feel stronger I guess.
Its not what I needed to hear. thats probobly why.
How do I turn my gift to help others with my situation.
This is my downfall I can;t answer this question.
but my goal is to inspire I must break molds.
But how, How do I break bad habits.

I am destined for greatness, I needed this talk more than I can describe with words.
that is saying a lot for I consider my self an Amature poet.
well Its good thoughts but I Know now that I needed some suggestions
On how to hone my skills even further.
This will not be an overnight process.
for once. I think I may be breaking molds. and making progress.