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Where Is Everyone I Know?
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The Influence I try to keep myself in check most of the time.
Usually nine times out of ten I could careless what many may think of me.
But today, somethings have truly got to me.
I feel lost and lonesome on this journey of life as of now,
I am confused to where i need to go and how to get there.
I have lost so much gained so little.
I blocked so many out of my life because They said I was doing very little.
To help myself and to obtain a life I didn't necessarily want
They were close friends, family. A father and some siblings.
They are out of touch with the real me.
Yet they make no effort to try and come and reach me.
I am alone, trying to tackle this life by myself.
keeping my emotions separate from everything else.
why am I always considered the bad guy?
yeah, I do things you don't approve of.
But you are clueless at what I approve of.
I am falling apart, and I am struggling to fit in.
It never has gotten to me.
but today I really feel like giving in.
I am addicted to cough syrup, It relieves this sickness and pain.
Once a week, twice a week. I find it not a problem.
I see things that are not necessarily real and for a moment I feel fine and away from these problems.
It takes away my pain. I feel joy and I feel content and happy.
even when I am sober I feel that bliss, It lasts a while.
Its hard to relate to many where I work.
I don't have enemy's but I do know what some of the peoples opinions are
even when they don't speak them.
I am an addict and a gamble.
Not one to hang out with outside the workplace.
Just another face, but not one to be a friends with.
all the friends of old are gone, down the drain.
They accuse me of throwing my life away.
Yet, they live so far away. never visit.
The friendship is very one way.
I can't afford to make it that way.
Yet, this isolation is eating me today.
why am I such a burden.
a kid with no future.
They may be right. I can live with that. I guess
these drugs I cant live without.
But I can go a few days.
I am never really strung out.
Its a way to pass the time.
that's all i am trying to do is trying to pass all this time.
This is such a sad poem :'(
I can't believe you can see ow lonely it all makes you and you still need it! Your pain must be incredible to get rid of all those who once had a vested interest in you. My friend at the risk of sounding like an overt Christian, you need prayer hun, and I'm not oneto talk that way but do you have a friend who passed? They are giving me a huge warning sign. I hope your going to get through and make a success of yourself, but first you have to sacrifice something one or the other, live the pain and get support or narc the pain alone. You are amazingly talented. I don't want to see another life wasted with pain. Pain is often an illusion. Break it if you can! Distract yourself from it and live! Hugs and prayers! SS
Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS
"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."
with great talent...
with great talent comes great sacrifice. Its not a road I would have chosen for myself. I had a few friends pass to be honest. I am not sure where to go or turn on this road of life. Decisions are getting harder. and money is getting tighter. I am doing my best to to try and survive today. but its only getting me so far.
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You will succeed!
It is concrete. Cheers SS
Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS
"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."