all my devotions seem to fail and end up shattering into misplaced emotions
tall tales take the place of buried words that never made it to the surface
defeated and left withering into self consuming illusions of hope
nothing but a glass sanctuary that seemed to collapse over me trapping me beneath
constantly i claw and dig to bring myself to the surface of this heartless fantasy
that seems to devour my pride and conscience
you were a sanctity the safe place for me to fall into a deep senseless sleep
but its all soon to be wasted in your reckless intentions to compromise what we became
a shot in the dark a hook with no line it was an unfetchable goal
left to toss and turn in a debilitating state believing i was the true evil
progressing into sleepless nights and deafening silence. we were devastated
you were a walking misfortune disguised by beauty
a fiasco with a plotted path of destruction
to be so defenseless in a situation blinded by delusions
senseless and beaten left to scream to asphyxiate the sound of your voice in my mind
to even think that i could prosper was a child's mistake as i seen this unfold over time
yet to still toss and turn longing for the norm
happiness was never accompanied by our contact and it was never there
just loneliness cloaked in a very lavish white lie
still i feel your touch as i believe your heart calls my name
but still depressed a submerged in sadness at the lack of an escape
true sorrow and agony comes from self pity
which i have acquired from the pieces of a passionate kiss
which seemed to be forgotten over time...