I feel as if
I should be sad,
but my body will not let me.
The hurt and pain,
that’s hidden inside,
refuses to come out.
Pushing as hard,
as I possibly can,
to get the pain out.
It pushes back,
laughing at me,
knowing I will not win.
Eventually I must give up,
let it know it has won,
let the pain stay inside.
Until I try again,
and get myself to cry,
then it will be alright.