"Tha Poetic Son"
No, No. No - Don't cry for me
Please Don't try to understand this pain
I've been here - I am use to this rain
Slowly but surely - I am becoming sane
Pulling myself up, so others wont tear from my pain
This is my life - And all my pain
I've been killed by cane
Hurt many others... From the selling of cane
So many bad memories... Eating at my brain
Forcing me to relive those thoughts
Choking me to a mental death - I need to cough
Gasp for air
The evil eyes in my head? - They continuously stare
Changing my reflection to a fun house glare
The life I led? - Its a constant scare
The news at 10 version of "truth or dare"
Is it true you did this? - I dare you to do that?
Well fact is fact - I've done all that
Hells kitchen? - I've gone and went back
Cooked on that stove - And ate at that table
My true life - Is worse than a Steven King fable
Its been flipped more times than your digital cable
But I tell my story - To make others able
To stand and face their fears - Hopefully pause their tears
Become their own individual - Stand up to peers
So dont weep for me - Don't feel for my past
Cause if it wasn't for that - I wouldn't be where Im at
I know its a lot on anyone's back
But don't cry for me - Thats all I ask
"Tha Poet"
You can't understand this- I don't expect you to,
If I asked you to make sense of it- It'd be too much for you.
I've worked so hard- To try and get past my past,
I've done a decent job- But memories will always last.
I'll always remember the fact- That happiness isn't within my grasp,
I've always been different- At times treated like an outcast.
I'm like the man in the iron mask- Because I hide my true self,
I give you what I feel you can handle- I keep the rest to myself.
You feel you can help- Well I'll give you a taste,
Imagine living your life- And honestly feeling it's a waste.
You pray for death- To a God that you don't even believe in,
But you know no other way- So you anxiously await to see him.
Imagine growin up- With drugs as the main focus,
At 5 I was seeing drug sales- Because this is what my folks did.
And they still do- Yes it's true- I swear I tell no lie,
And your whole life you walk around- With this secret inside.
At school you fill out forms- Which ask your parents occupation,
You have to write unemployed- Because it's illegal to sell medication.
Let's exit these memories- I see the glossiness in your eyes,
I asked you when we first started- To please not cry.
I should have told you this before but,
My thoughts are like mysteries- Just waiting to be solved,
You have to go deeper within me- To understand what is involved.
And should you decide to do so- The things that you may see,
May bring tears to your eyes- But I ask you, don't cry for me.
Very real...I liked the flow of your words and the emotion and realism put into the piece. It's hard growing up like this, trust me, I can relate. Thanks for having the strength to write this down for all of the ones like us.
Tha Poet-
I loved this one, it was really touching and I know you said don't cry, but the glossiness came to my eyes when I read this line
"And your whole life you walk around- With this secret inside.
At school you fill out forms- Which ask your parents occupation,
You have to write unemployed- Because it's illegal to sell medication"
You are very talented use it to the best of who you are.
-Amanda