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Judge Me
I have been down to the bottom of the bottomless pit,
I have been lower than I ever thought I could get.
I have faced things that are now unimaginable to me,
If I painted my Life it would be a master piece.
Not because of the all the beauty that it holds,
But because it’s a story and it should be told.
Maybe a book would suit my past better,
But I choose poetry because people understand that better.
From my childhood, or should I say since I was 14 years old,
I have been places in my mind that some folks choose to never go.
For fear drives them away and they want to remain what we call normal,
Well I’m about to tell you some things and please let me forewarn you.
This isn’t about happiness and the goodness of Life,
This is about suffering and for me what Life is like.
From the contemplation of Death and ending my pain,
To trying to be happy and keep my self sane.
For young teenage kid this shit was too much,
Why in the hell did my Life get chosen to be rough.
Did ask to be hurt and tormented by anger,
Well through it all I have faced the worst of all dangers.
Depression, regression, sadness and pure hate,
My Life has been a muthafucca but it has been great.
I have finally reached the point where I control my emotions,
Seemed pointless at times but for some reason I kept going.
Why in the hell should I give a fucc and start crying,
I was very much alive but my inside was dying.
What’s the point in living if your going to kill your mind and soul,
That’s the most important things it keeps you whole.
I lied to myself cuz I thought I could handle it,
But I couldn’t I stumbled and fell and broke like a chandelier.
But now from this point I live day to day,
Cuz I’ve come to the conclusion that it’s the only way.
Only way for me to make it through Life,
Seems wrong to others but to me it feels so right.
You can choose to hate me or you can choose to Love me,
But unless you know the shit I’ve been through don’t ever try to judge me.
Michael C. Lucas
