on the back of his Vespa
he keeps me on a string
choking is better than crying all the time
so fuck it at least I’m trying
he can say he wants to give me the world
before he’s even seen half of it
trust is something
I will give you without second guessing
I don’t think I heard my heart screaming
I want a new spring with every human
but I keep turning back and
I have left a trail of
fucking frost again
I have spiderwebbed the ground under our feet
I can’t help but hold it in my fingers
and end every day with frostbite
I have not found my April
I leave sunflowers everywhere
and lose them all so fucking fast
there comes a point where
planting is just a way
to get through to the next disappointment
there comes a day when
I have to face it
maybe I am just
all
winter
Spiderwebbed Ground
I try to leave a place and the people there better than they were before I came, more enlightened when I leave, on occasion dazzled. Leaving frost with each step, for me a long ago trail, now waiting for death as gratiously as I can. All these words - nowhere to put them.
~S~