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Why does it take this long

to understand the chemistry under my skin?

Almost like they are spelling it out

I lie here and things

happen.

Only sometimes

I am fast enough to take them out of the air

this tornado of

how can I hate him and want to be him at once?

I want to pull apart everything that might make the world burn

and once I have it I will

hold it for safekeeping

I’m counting the reasons I can’t find you.

A world blind to us

little pieces of the past

all the impossibles I want to reach

and so I keep slipping

further away from them

trying to find a forever

that always feels brand new.

I want to shapeshift

every day

into something a little different

into exactly what you need

but how can I when all I can say is

how can I want you and be what you want at once

aching like this

I could tell you everything you did today

every word you have written for me

everything you love

but

I’m still counting your scars

I want I need to know you better

I want to be the queen of your world

but I don’t know the landscape

I can barely hold your hand

some words twist out of existence into

a hole in my chest

I want to be the perfect distraction like I used to be

I want to be the one to make you forget where you are

so I’m counting the reasons I can’t find you.

Kisses on street corners

ghosts only I can see

all the impossibles I want to reach

and so I keep slipping

further away from them

trying to find a forever

that always feels brand new.