Loneliness
By jfarrell
It’s not about people,
Or numbers of people;
You spend time with hundreds of people everyday,
Some of them the same people…..
But,
When you can’t connect… make a link… a spark….
People I’ve known 20 years are as connected
As people I see on tv or films….
To me, that is.
I stop the film, the tv show….
I go home from work…
These people just cease to exist
Until tomorrow,
When I see them again.
Loneliness is about not connecting with people….
And, what is ‘connecting with people’…..?
I don’t know how to define that….
I assume it’s an ‘emotional’ connection….
“We got a spark between us, we have.”
That’s emotional, right?
Or just old corny chat up lines?
When you think of ‘mum’ or ‘dad’….
There’s an emotional element to it?….
Love?…. loyalty?…..
I have a mum I hate;
A sister I still won’t see after nearly 36 years;
And recently said goodbye,
To the only “friends” I had.
To have ‘connected’….
With someone…..
Ever….
It’s not about people;
It’s about connecting with people.
And I don’t know how to connect.