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pain a forgoten soul
out spoken with words
hear the cries echoing your name
countering my addiction
as i am a roaming body
empty, broken and alone
lost.. as i am misled in many directions
on a search for a purpose
looking beyond a shallow soul
a flawless pain
numbness, of love which i strongly desire
dieing, im left behind to suffur
i am nothing now
leaving everything i believed..
everything i loved...
everything i trusted..
the only thing i had
gone
as happiness for i am longing
fading away the colors of myself
nothing seems to last..
morbid, i now have shattered..
intense
wow! --- i know this tune by heart, you have once again captured the moment extremely well--- such powerful words 'fading away the colors of myself' --- that is most certainly the black and white of the matter
Re-runs Are Always Better
...or just as good the second or third time around. The words are b&w, the mood is b&b (black & blue). Comments! Yikes, Batman, who parked the Batmobile on this woman? Depression, just had a bout of that and probably scared some folks...we are all insane practicing our indiv. insanity alone and inflicting it on others (which is why so few comments). Just read a poem entitled "Homicide Note" Turned it around nicely, yes? Not me, it's them! Truth and wisdom say it is somewhere in between. If you have a vagina you are going to have depression - find the coping mechanism - not smoking and drinking and drugs - that makes it worse. Sing, write poetry, dehabituate - try something new, play jacks or marbles or hopscotch - or grab a ball and dribble - whatever made you glad as a kid. I garden aka playing in the dirt - just do it mon chere~~A
you're very intelectual, i
you're very intelectual, i appreciate all your sincere comments!! :D BUT yes depression is very common in teens, there are ups some days and down the other, i just have hope knowing i can make something out of myself and my future, i have something cheerful to look forward to! and i agree its tempting to go for that temporary fix of drinking and smoking to escape depression, but you realize its only a temporary happiness. that is why i write poetry, draw, and do photography, a healthy positive way to release the negative energy, the pain, and sadness and feel great releif!! thank you :)
forever and always <3 Jenn