Black hole cunt

Unmotherly love envelops you in all your childish ways 

snickers and jealousy 

emotional vampira 

vacuous hole holding love at ransom

unmotherly mother 

narcissism reigns over your sadistic ire

never satisfied,

manipulation and cunning.

pander them to exact perfect cuts of pain from me.

but this is the last heart bleed,

this the last compassionate falter.

I am no longer your prisoner.

my babes are safe in the bough of my loving arms 

a million miles away from your strategic abandonment of me

And your Radom spates of visitational cruelties 

it spread a generation too far, 

YOU went too far! 

It will no longer reign 

My humility is gone,

I am the best version of every dream you ever had

and I did it on my own,

despite the cruelty of your cold! 

a lesson must be learned, 

now I'll show you a mother with a fierce love,

the mother you choose not to be.

A lioness crouched over her cubs guarded by claws

though, you are capable as my other siblings seem to attest 

you only have interests for their best. 

no more last, 

no more future, 

no more past.

you don't hurt me anymore.

my progeny will rise to all they aspire,

challenged and sheltered,

all equally loved.

a child can not be her own mother's mother.

an emotional miser,

you are nothing I need, now nothing I want

my only regret is, that I didn't leave your black hole sooner. 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

some relationships are better from afar.

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mrpoofs's picture

damn super intense! Wish it

damn super intense! Wish it didnt have to happen, but glad I got to read it. Soundgarden pun?

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Bang on mr poofs, black hole

Bang on mr poofs, black hole cunt... won't you come and wash away the pain...


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

word_man's picture

sad and touching write,good

sad and touching write,good for you


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Thanks word man, sad for

Thanks word man, sad for those who are affected hopefully it's not long term 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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Black Hole

There it is: Black Hole in a poem as powerful as the gravitational pull inside one. "...the last compassionate faulter..." and "...visitational cruelties..." resonate through each phase of this calculated rant. We all emerge from such black holes renewed by the errors of the last influential voyagers. Cool and thought provoking writing well designed, excellently executed! - allets -


 

 

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Thank you so much it really

Thank you so much it really means so much for you to say this has been a long and painful experience for me and having the power to choose my reactions in some small way while they are constantly shifting tugging at my hurt inner child and my higher self is an immense consolation, as are your words when you see the meaning and the potential of the universal thoughts emotions, pain and joy. Blessings to you my soul friend 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."

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Soul To Soul

I was the baby of the family, but of 4, 2 are dead (excessive drinking) and one is six years older than I am. I will eventually be the last leaf on the tree and any imagined or actual neglect or slights (ha) is muted by my continuance. I think this is called the last laugh. All slights are forgiven - may as well, there will soon be no one to blame any more and life will grow calmer. -allets-

 


 

 

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To forgive is a given

To forgive is a given bitterness is optional they say,

with out its taste sweet couldnt be sweeter xo I like my memories like my coffee, dark, bitter, a third light cream, frothy  and coffee rings with strange hieroglyphic clouds crowding the rim to remind me how many things happen by chance and how many are put into motion by my hands and lips xo happy new year may the last laugh be at the bottom of our empty cups painted with the kind of gliphs that provide no insights so the bastards find their own way through life! ;) did I say happy new year! ;) hugss 


Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's love, but not as we know it."