bohemian toe polish

 

Her toes, freshly painted
with a dark

metallic toe-polish

 

She is perched in a window-jam, wrapped in a towel
high above
the bohemian neighborhood

 

A cigarette, curiously dangles
from her lip,

with a long vacant ash


Her smoking hand, is trembling
The other

is coiled, round a bottle of Jack

 

Smoke curls upward, and disappears
behind the curtain

 

One by one, a parade of tears
tumble across
her porcelain cheek

 

They tumble

down, like lonely troubadours
that have lost their way

 

She does not notice, that I’ve entered

the flat

She is already halfway, to the bottle's end

 

She is too exhausted

and too drunk, to notice anything

 

Her mind is perched somewhere
far away;

It is contemplating, dreaming of another world

 

It is a long hard day, for both of us

 

Her legs are neatly folded

beneath her chin;

She is using her oil-painted knees,
as a platform for thought

 

With a vacant look, she flicks

her ash,

from the window


She flicks it, on the world below

with a look

of loathing and disgust

 

In a corner of the room, there are

several
shredded canvases


They are strewn atop, an old

pizza box
full of dry crumbly crusts

 

Down in the world below,
a newspaper

scuttles across the street

 

She watches it, as it floats
away
down the avenue, like a lost balloon

 

Somewhere in the pages, are the words

of a little fat man;
He claims to know something
about her oil paintings

 

He said, "They were too melancholy"

 

But there was nothing melancholy

about them;

Only the little fat man himself, was melancholy

 

He was melancholy,

because he did not get something

that he wanted

 

 

Seeing the scene, as it was painted before me
I shook my keys,
to announce my presence

 

and then, stepped into the candle light

 

She wrapped herself around me

quivering,

as a new stream of tears began to flow

 

 

Do not despair, my sweet darling

 

Do not despair,

when the world does not meet you
on fair terms

 

For in truth, my sweetness – It meets no one that way

 

And whether you engage it, with your intellect
or not,
It meets us all the same

 

 

She tried to pull me, in another

direction

 

But standing on my shoes

barefoot,

I walked her back to the window-jam;

 

It was raining outside.

 

 

Lighting a cigarette - I picked up the bottle
and took

a long hard draw

 

And while I gathered her

against me,

I could feel the increased pace of her quivering

 

I took another pull - a big one

 

and I too,

flicked my ash

 

On the world below

 

 

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'Do not despairmy sweet

'Do not despair
my sweet darling
when the world does not
meet you
on fair terms;

For in truth, my sweetness
It meets

no one that way

 

And whether you engage it
with your intellect
or not;
It meets us all the same'


These two stanzas are pure genius


My mother was a rainbow

My father turned her grey

they loved me like a sky lantern

they watched me fly away

Spinoza's picture

That is a fine and kind

That is a fine and kind compliment my friend. Thank you.

djtj's picture

Loved it

Loved the story line. like diving into a novel.

djtj's picture

But I read it to the end. Why

But I read it to the end. Why Compress it? Compress it for editing purposes but maybe take it to prose and write a short story. Ill viist this again and think on what you are saying

 

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Maybe you're right. I think

Maybe you're right. I think you're right. Maybe it doesn't need compressing. I hack things apart sometimes from habit. It's not always a good habit. Sometimes I just need to hear a voice of reason in the wilderness.

J-C4113D's picture

I have been reading poetry

I have been reading poetry since the spring of 1973.  Very, very few poets to "get" to me such that I have an emotional reaction that is beyond words to describe.  (Stevens in the primary exception to that experience.)  But now, you have gotten in there where few have gone before.  I do not have sufficient words to describe the poignant beauty, and almost excruciating effect, this poem provides.  This is beauty of a degree I do not normally find when I am browsing.  I cannot get over this, at the moment.  I am going to have to get up and get a drink of cold water, or go smoke a cigar, or somethng, i don't know, but this one has shaken me up in the very best way that says---borrwing William Windom's words in a Star Trek episode---"Pure poetry . . . absolutely pure!"


J-Called

Spinoza's picture

A man can live for a long

A man can live for a long time on glowing commentary like that. This one has been in the works for a very long time, and sometimes it takes a very long time – because you need to study the fracture lines of a stone before cutting it, especially if it's a rare stone that you love.

J-C4113D's picture

Your stone metaphor is one of

Your stone metaphor is one of the most brilliant descriptions of writing a poem that I have ever read---and I am including, in that comparison, Vergil, Milton, Stevens, and Cunningham.  I do not think any of them ever put it so succintly and precisely.  I suspect that metaphor will be in the Quotation books someday.


J-Called

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Loved this read and

Loved this read and especially your description of the girl and the reasons for her sadness and how she was coping... awesome imagery so real to me.

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...and he asked her, "do you write poetry? Because I feel as if I am the ink that flows from your quill."

"No", she replied, "but I have experienced it. "