AN INDEPENDENT WOMAN, WITH A HEART OF LIONESS
AND SPIRIT OF A MAYAN WARRIOR…CARMEN, FULL OF
PRIDE, NEVER TOOK GRIEF FROM NO ONE…A MOTHER
OF THREE BEAUTIFUL GIRLS…THINKING ABOUT THEIR
FUTURE SHE INVEST IN A ACADEMIC CAREER.
SHE IS BLESSED, CARED, AND LOVED BY HER FAMILY
AND FRIENDS….THERE’S ONLY ONE PROBLEM, CARMEN
LIKES TO HIT MEN!! IN HER FEW RELATIONSHIPS SHE’S
LAID HANDS UPON THEIR FACE!! A SIGN OF LOW SELF-
ESTEEM…DON’T TELL CARMEN ABOUT THE WAY SHE
TREATS MEN, BECAUSE SHE’LL TELL YOU THAT IN HER
KITCHEN, “ONLY MY PORK-RINDS POP”….
IN SPANISH, ‘AQUI SOLO MIS CHICARRONES TRUENAN.’
GOTTA’ LOVE HER SPUNK!!! MAYBE IT’S THE LACK OF
FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON IN HER LIFE THAT CARMEN
FEELS LIKE SHE’S OWNED LOVE OR RESPECT FROM OTHER’S…
OR MAYBE IS BECAUSE SHE NEVER HAD A TRUE FATHER
FIGURE TO GUIDE HER THROUGH A RELATIONSHIP…
HER FATHER WAS KILLED AT A YOUNG AGE!! WHY, SHE
TREATS MEN WITH DISRESPECT…IS FAR FROM MY GUESS!!
THREE WEEKS AGO, CARMEN STABBED HER MAN!! IN THE
HEAT OF THE ARGUMENT UNDER THE EFFECTS OF ALCOHOL,
ONE THING LED TO THE NEXT….FIST WHERE EXCHANGE….
HER OLDEST DAUGHTER OF 18 YRS, JAZZMIN TRIED TO
INTERVENE…HER STEP-FATHER STARTED CHOCKING
HER, THE ACCOUNT GOES!! CARMEN IN RAGE, RAN TO THE
KITCHEN AND GRABBED A KNIFE….YELLED AT HER DAUGHTER
TO MOVE…AND SWUNG AWAY!! SLICING HIS WRIST AND
STABBING HIS GUTS!!
THE POLICE CAME AND HEARD BOTH SIDE’S OF THE STORY….
CARMEN NOT COOPERATING WAS ARRESTED FOR ASSAULT
WITH A DEADLY WEAPON!! I THOUGHT SHE STABBED HIM FOR
SELF-DEFENSE!! AND WHY DIDN'T HE GO TO JAIL FOR
ASSAULTING A WOMAN?? FUCK THE SYSTEM!! WHEN NEWS
CAME TO ME ABOUT WHAT CARMEN HAD DONE…
AT FIRST I WAS UPSET…WANTING TO GO AND KICK HER MAN’S
ASS, FINISH STABBING HIM MYSELF!! THEN I FELT ANGRY WITH
CARMEN, BECAUSE EVERYONE TOLD HER THIS WAS EVENTUALLY
GOING TO HAPPENED! SHE SAID, SHE HAD THINGS UNDER CONTROL!!
NOW I KNOW THIS IS NOT THE TIME TO SAY, ‘I TOLD YOU SO.’ –
BUT I JUST DID!! YOU SEE CARMEN IS MY OLDEST SISTER…AND
SHE’S LIVING A NIGHTMARE RIGHT NOW!! I HAVE YET SPOKEN TO
HER IN JAIL, BECAUSE I DON’T WANT TO SEE MY SISTER SUFFERING—
THIS IS THE FIRST TIME SPEAKING ABOUT THIS IN DEPTH, BECAUSE
I DO WANT TO KILL HER MAN!!
I DON’T CARE HOW STRONG A WOMAN MAY BE, NO MAN SHOULD EVER
LAY HANDS UPON THEM…EVEN IF THEY DO!! YET THIS IS THE ONLY
WAY I CAN COPE WITH THIS WITHOUT ‘KILLING A MAN’, THAT’LL
EVENTUALLY LEAD ME TO WHERE SHE’S AT!! BUT BACK TO REALITY!!
THIS RELATIONSHIP THAT CONCEIVED TWO DAUGHTERS HAS ALWAYS
BEEN ON THE ROCKS, NEITHER’ ONE OF THEM LEAVING EACH OTHER,
BECAUSE OF THE ‘KIDS’ THEY SAY…AN EXCUSE THAT’S BEING PAID
DEARLY TODAY—
IF YOU FIND YOURSELF IN A RELATIONSHIP LIKE MY SISTER’S AND DO
NOT SEE A CLEAR FUTURE WITH YOUR MATE AND IF YOU HAVE KIDS
TOGETHER, ESPECIALLY FOR THE ‘KIDS’ …GO YOUR SEPARATE WAYS!
THE CHILDREN WILL BE BETTER OFF, THAN SEEING THEIR FATHER AND
MOTHER FIGHT, AND GOD PREVENT AN EPISODE THAT HAS OCCURRED
IN MY FAMILY FROM HAPPENING TO YOURS—DON’T LIE TO YOURSELVES
AND SAY, EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY!!BECAUSE IT’S NOT!! CARMEN I
LOVE YOU—I’LL SPEAK TO YOU SOON!! JAZZMIN MY HEART HURTS FOR
YOU THE MOST, BUT I DON’T HAVE THE WORDS TO SAY ‘THINGS WILL
BE OKAY’….ONLY I LOVE YOU!!! I HATE FEELING THIS WAY!! HELPLESS….