I suppose I was right, in the end
Or in the new beginning, or something like it
I predicted that life would fall apart
And then rebuild itself into something frightening
Something I didn't necessarily want
Something I never asked for
A lot has changed, as it always does, always will
And we learn to forgive ourselves when we can't accept it
But it pushes through us and transcends us
Pretends like we're not even here
And alters everything within and around what we have created
I had never really thought to embrace anything
I held people close, but nothing beyond
Concepts and surroundings, ideals and the like
Everything's been pretty temporary
And now I'm starving for some clarity
Or a bit of security to keep me warm
Something to cling to, to rely on, to need
To bring into me
I guess the change is to blame, the phases and their symptoms
Their lack of sympathy for my panic
And their absolute refusal to tell me how to help myself
I don't really know much of calm or anger
As I seem to exist somewhere in between
But I know of sadness
And I'm tired of having it as my guest
So the change will continue its wretched turning
And I'll be taken, against my will, along for the ride
I'll watch my world be torn asunder
Then receive my orders to rebuild it in another's likeness
And I, like you, will only frown
And lose my temper with someone that I love
Because the luck that we're granted always has a catch
And it's often the end of everything.
I liked this a lot. I could definitely relate.
Keep posting new stuff!! :]
I'll check out your other writings too.