As I gazed upon the mirror,
The reflection was now broken glass.
What I had held so dearly,
Now lingered within my past.
I snatched a shard from the floor,
As tears stained my cheek.
Ruby blood had painted the glass,
While I stood unable to speak.
I closed my weeping eyes,
and fell upon my knees.
And there I sat upon the floor,
Feeling God's wicked disease.
My head pulsated violently,
with its throbbing pain,
As another hour swam by,
Until it drove me insane.
As I collapsed into the tiles,
Which contained a stinging cold.
How I wanted just to lie there,
Until I had grown old.
The knife of God's trust,
Had struck me in the chest,
As I laid there,
Sulking and depressed.
How I wanted to die,
Like my blood to wither away.
To loiter as a ghost,
And haunt beings as a stray.
Reality slipped away,
As I resumed my lonely dream.
I had been ensnared,
And couldn't help but scream.
To scream out every worry,
Every stress that came to mind.
I wanted to live out my job,
Of which God had me assigned.
But tough was my journey,
And I thought of giving in.
I wanted to die,
And indulge in my sin.
To die a lonely child,
Was what I had thought.
Not even making it to twenty,
Was what dreams had brought.
Now it seems that something,
A simple mortal boy.
Had turned my life around,
And lead me into joy.
My burning heart desired,
A simple touch of lips.
How badly I wanted to recieve,
A chance at lovers kiss.
Though destroyed and collapsed,
I began to rebuild.
A hole within my soul,
And suddenly been filled.
The palace of my heart,
Opened wide its golden gate.
Finally I had found,
The reason for my wait.
I gained the strength,
To live out my life.
I picked myself up off the floor,
And pushed away the knife.
I cleaned my tears,
And I washed my face.
I escaped my grief,
Until everything was in place.
Content with what I have,
Though as little as it may be.
I have something much better,
which everyone can see.
I certainly can see! I'm pleased you turned your life around. Your poem certainly gives an insight into to where you've come from and who you've become.