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Faces of causes
Faces of causes
You say you're cold
You say you're callused
You say you're heartless
Or damaged beyond repair
Truth is we all are in some way
We've all been hurt
We've all been beaten in some way
No one is perfect
You could have been beaten physically
You could have been beaten mentally
By drugs or alcohol
By words
By someone's looks of judgment
Physical abuse is easier to over come then mental.
Mental abuse can lead to different things. As well as physical.
Think before you say or do something to others. You never know their stories.
This is my story.
Born in Novemeber
My mother gave a choice to my father either drugs or us (my mom and I)
He chose his drugs, so she left.
I was two when he left me.
Life was great until I was 9.
At age 9 my life was turned upside down.
My mom married a man who was into little girls. (Not just any little girl. Me little girl)
My mother did not know this.
While my mother was gone he did terrible things to me.
He locked my brother outside in the cold, or made him take hour long baths.
It all started at age 9. He told me of I told anyone he will kill my mom and brother. So in was scared and never told.
Age 10 it was still happening. 4 times a week.
Age 11 it was still happening. It was more frequently happening now... Almost every day.
The summer before I turned 12. He was caught by my 10 year old brother. At this point I was already giving up and stopped fighting him. I'd just lay there. Right nefore he got caught he thought I was pregnant. ( I didn't know but in was still scared) thankfully I wasnt.
My brother told our mom and mom asked me. I denied it
Then he yelled at me saying stop lying sissy I saw it happening right there. And pointed to the living room floor. He said I can see the tears in your eyes. The hurt he was doing to You. But you wouldn't fight. I said its been going on for so long I gave up fighting. My mom scooped us up and went to our local police department. They arrested and he was in jail for only one year.
The church we went too convinced my mother into taking this son of a bi*** back.
Thankfully when she did he didn't do anything else. But she watched him. When he started watching me she left him again.
I was 14 by that time
At 14 I had so much resentment towards my mother I did not know the stuff she was going through with the same man. He started forcing her to do things. Tha kfully she left him then too.
Age 14 my baby cousin died of sids. My mother and I was caring for him because his mom developed epilepsy during her pregnancy. And was still in the hospital.
15 my mother met a wonderful man. Who is now my step dad and I absolutely love him.
Age 16 my aunt commuted suicide. That cut my to my core. So deep I started to get depressed again.
Age 17 my grand dad died. (There is a poem about him called grand pa I do believe.)
Age 17 my best friend was killed in a car accident.
Age 18 I graduated high school
Age 19 I got pregnant with my first baby and the father was married and I didn't know it.
He kept telling me he wasn't and everyone around him said he wasn't either. Even his own family. I finally called the local court house and asked for records and they told me he was. So I left him while still pregnant. He also told me to abort my baby.
Age 20 my baby was born. Very stressful pregnancy.
6 months later I met my soon to be husband and before we got married I ended up pregnant. I was 6 months pregnant when we married. ( I had known my soon to be husband since I was 12)
21 my Other baby was born.
I am now 33 and divorced. The marriage wasn't super bad but it was bad. All he did was cheat. And lie to me.
28 I met my now boyfriend. The first 5 years was super controlling and mentally abusive. Now we are still together and things are much different. I've stopped letting him control me. And he not really mentally abusing either.
And took my life back.
This is my story. (There is much more I have not listed)
What Iam saying is please don't bully people. You have no idea what people have been through.
I know my story is not as bad as others but be mindful of others.
