July 8 part 1

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Dear John

I'm a little broken and a little bruised 

I feel cheated and abused

I feel defeated and definitely used. 

I’m lost in my mind, confused

I'm sitting right next to you dying inside 

Fighting off this emotional tide that rises up when I'm with you

A roller coaster ride within

My heart dying my smile shinning but I'm growing frail

I'm tired of pretending, or being treated like dog

Slowly reality sinking in is taking away my fog. 

I'm so in love with you

I wish you still loved me too

I keep trying to forget

But I find myself still holding on. 

I’m fighting to let go, to stay strong

I realize that something is so wrong

May be it’s time to keep moving on 

Marching forward standing tall

Through the burning sun and the sinking storm

I have to keep going forward in this alone 

When At one time you were right there

I can see your silhouette 

So close and so far my cheeks are soaking wet 

But my eyes stay dry 

As my hands touch where you lye

My dreams are still full of you

Do you feel me trying to draw close?

Or is there too much distance

Between these blankets and sheets

Is your love dying? For mine still beats

Somehow the memories of us always creep

As I whisper goodbyes that I don’t mean while you sleep

I’m afflicted

Were bound together but I feel conflicted

Yet I know to you I’m convicted

Theres nowhere to go where I don’t feel insane

Cursing you while still calling your name

I love you with all that I am.

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Ramie's picture

I understand girl. But

I understand girl. But sometimes it's easier to let go, you'll find holding on causes more pain. There's so much more to life and so much in this world than that one guy who wasn't good enough to keep you around. He'll regret it. They always do.

ScarlettLetter's picture

Thank you. I appreciate that 

Thank you. I appreciate that 


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