sitting here wondering what i did wrong.
screaming and bleeding and dying all the same.
as i sit here screaming out your name.
blood rushing to my wounds pouring out all these years of pain
finally i can leave this place.
Why did i deserve this horrible pain?
What did i do and where shall i go?
Im slipping under
the coldness of your lies.
as you go off with her I sit and cry
sitting here wondering asking myself "why?"
You corrupted my very last chance.
Ruined it Stepped in it, But do you care?
Im sorry for ever believing that you
could ever show me the way to a new life.
The coldness and sharpness of this small blade
cutting me scarring me so i can die.
death's just a dream for in death im away from you
away from life and all the pain.
Im slipping under
the coldness of your lies
as you go off with her
I sit and cry
sitting here wondering asking myself "why?"
You corrupted my very last try.
ruined it stepped in it but do you care.
I lie here waiting for death to come
You've jaded me you've hated me
now i have memories taunting me teasing me
hurting me taking me under
showing me that all my life
was lived in vain.
drowning in all my pain.
I have no where to hide.
I have no where to run.
This is my suicide.
hey its me this is for Chloe and not for anyone who reads the poem,notes and crituque, know that i never wanted to hurt you, not ever, i never tried to lie, never wanted to lie, but i did, you are and always will be a part of my life, even if you hate me forever, know i will never think of you that way, and i cant lie about that