In Less Than Two Months, A Sixtieth Anniversary

In less than two months, Christmas night of this year will mark the sixtieth anniversary of my first encounter with Mary Shelley's novel, Frankenstein, and the beginning of my love and admiration for her which continues to thrive in my soul to this very day.


Apparently my father had defied my mother's instructions and had purchased for me---then a five year old in my fourth month of kindergarten---two of the Aurora Plastics Company's models, Frankenstein and The Wolf Man.  I remember that my mother became quite vocal about this purchase, but, over time, would be quite helpful by painting the models after my father had assembled them (like the model airplanes that were so popular in this days), as he continued to purchase them.  By Spring of 1964, at the end of the week in which my tonsils were removed, I had acquired what I still consider the canonical set:  Frankenstein, The Wolf Man, Dracula, The Mummy, The Creature from the Black Lagoon, The Phnatom of the Opera, and the Hunchback of Notre Dame.  I am impressed with the fact, th, at on the back of the assembly diagram of several of the models, the Aurora Company gave a synopsis of the creature's origin (The Wolf Man, The Mummy, and The Creature from the Black Lagoon).  Because the others were taken from established literature, no synopsis was provided---evidently a strategy intended to compel young people to read the novels.  (In my case, it worked . . . except for Leroux's novel, The Phantom of the Opera, which I refuse to read).


But this process began with the model of Frankenstein's Monster, which was an effect of Mary Shelley's novel.  Approximately a month later---on a Friday night when my parents hosted one of their card parties, during which (that particular night), my father's impending thirty-eighth birthday was celebrated---I was awkaened to see the Universal Film, Bride of Frankenstein, which was already in progress, broadcast by one of our local "Shock Theaters."  I was so groggy from sleep that I was only able to be awake, and to remember, the hoisting of the Monster on the pole, his imprisonment, and then the scene in the blind man's hut; then I fell into a deep sleep and was put back to bed.  But, that was my second encounter with Mary's Monster, and also with the inimitable performance, in that part, of the great Boris Karloff.  (Five years and several weeks later, I, not yet eleven years old, was devastated by an early morning broadcast, during my breakfast, that Karloff had died of emphysema and other complications in London, England.  The host of the morning radio show that my mother listened to every weekday morning---a show that normally broadcast news and "easy listening" music---seemed very shook up by the news of Karloff's passing; and declared that, during the four hour duration of that morning'a broadcast, the entire line-up would be wholly focused on Karloff:  facts of his life, some samples of his recorded readings, and some light discussions of his major horror films.  When I arrived at elementary school, that morning (fifth grade), I encountered---for the first time of my life---my peers' well deployed abilities in psychological bullying:  I was mocked, jeered, and called names for my sorrow at Karloff's passing.  Almost all of those thirty little bastards have something nasty to say about me, and my suddenly raw emotions.


I have written elsewhere about how, despite "official" pressure to choose otherwise, I selected Mary Shelley as the subkect of my Sophomore project in my academic department at college, History.  Every student in every academic major was required to do both a Sophomore project and a Senior thesis, as well as completion of the required and electice courses, to graduate.  In the History Department, the course that administered the Sophomore project was titled "The Craft of History" (which we majors renamed, "The Crap of History"):  in those days before the Internet, it taught the bibliographical components of historical research and the uniform style and content of footnotes.  The Sophomore project was to compile one hundren index cards (3X5 size, always in stock at the University Bookstore) a particular historical subject.  Texts cited could be monographs, articles, and essays in professional journals or well established magazines:  newspaper items, and all biographies, were excluded.  My project was "the critical response to Mary Shelley's novel, Frankenstein, 1818-1978, one hundred and sixty years."  Once I declared that in class, I became subject to another round of psychological bullying, as several persons---my academic advisor, the department chairman, several professor with and outside of the department, and several of my classmates attempted to persuade me to select another subject.  I flatly refused.  I was fascinated to read the pattern of critical response to Mary's first novel; and to see that it came in waves, positive or negative, depending on the time frame.  I turned in my one hundred cards, all properly written in exact bibliographical form, on the day they were due, and was given a very begrudged A.  Twenty-three years later, at a private reunion luncheon, the subject of my defiance, and of the questionable logic of my choice, was mentioned in conversation.  Even then, they were still talking about it.


I have posted well over five thousand poems to this site; I have been writing Poetry since the summer of 1994, and have wanted to write it since Monday, October 13th, of 1975.  At the very beginning of my literary ambition (which was, originally, focused n writing horror and science fiction in prose) stands Mary Shelley.  I am a Poet because of her example that touched my life.  (I was born the day after the June 16th anniversary of the nightmare that inspired Frankenstein.)  During the years I was bullied in school, beginning in February 1969 and proceeding, with almost daily demonstrations (mostly verbal; several including physical assault; and all of which, according to my parents and my teachers, I brought upon myself for my refusal to conform to society's expectations of normality.  In my parents view of reality, three things threatened the well-being of every young person:  Poetry, communism, and homosexuality; and my parents believed that participation in any one of them was also to be drawn into the other two.  You can imagine their shock when, with amused deliberation and intention, I announced to them during our dinner on Monday evening, October 13th, 1975, that I intended to write Poetry going forward.  They had tolerated the idea of writing horror and science fiction:  one could earn money from those.  During my first break from college, which ran November 23rd, 1976 to January 2nd, 1977, my mother actually called my High School Mentor, who was then the Chairman of the English Department and for whom I had worked as TA during my senior year in high school, and asked her to tell me that I should not expect any future success in the art of Poetry.  My mentor reported this to me in confidence (I tell it now because all parties to the conversation, other than me, are deceased) amd said that she had told my mother, courteously and respectfully, that she could not make such a statement to me.  

At the beginning of this process, which began on Christmas Night of 1963, my mother attempted to discourage my interest.  Thirteen years later, she was even more vociferous in her objections---after all, most Poets were "homos and commies," she believed.  The examples from Mary Shelley's life, and her novels, and the significance of her literary achievement, helped to keep me from succumbing to my mother's objections, and to the various people who, whether recruited by her or not, joined in attemtping to obstruct my path.

Starward



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Thank you very much for

Thank you very much for understanding and empathizing, and not treating it as just some old man's ranting.  This year, for some reason, I am starting to see patterns in my life as far back as kindergarten, patterns that were always there but I was not mature enough to notice.  I remember a September afternoon during kindergarten (we only attended four hours in the morning and were home by about noon).  I was sitting on my swingset, and the thought suddenly occured to me---and it was almost palpable---that the same sunlight that was shining on me in my parents' backyard was also shining on the chirch building (where our kindergarten met in the basement; the school district rented severa; basements from chuirches for the kindergarten classes, which were still a new development in our area).  Then---and this thought almost overwhelmed me---I realized that if the sunlight could be in two places at once, it must always be shining on my grandparents' residences; and I begin imagining all the various "landmarks" that I loved there:  the plank bridge over the creek's branchlet; the robin's egg blue corner of their cottages foundation slab that the grass never managed to cover; the pump box that delivered water; the lilac bush; and the rusted iron trellis that the spring vines loved to climb.  On that September day, at the very beginning of my thirteen years of compulsory schooling, I was able to imagine---without being there---the sunlight glowing over my grandparents' residence.  I should like to think this moment was another of the beginnings of my journey toward Poetry.


Please forgive me if this reply seems verbose.


Starward

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Any day that marks a landmark

Any day that marks a landmark in your creative journey is a day worth celebrating. It was deeply moving and compelling to receive a window into the unfolding of your literary first love that began with a plastic model and grew into a collection of nearly 6,000 poems and decades of poetry appreciation. 

 

No wonder Mary Shelley is still your girl! 

 

It is heartbreaking that your poetic odyssey had to be torpedoed by infantile bullies and outrageous misconceptions, but you triumphed and even proved a few pompous academics to be fools (Shelley's popularity has endured and is stronger than ever while the scoffers are insignificant footnotes in your memory).

 

So as you approach another anniversary of the first glimmers of your destiny, know that your courage, along with the influence of your literary soulmate, conquered every obstacle thrown in your way. You won, and continue to win, with every unforgettable verse you write.