Dear who ever this may concern
I know it’s been years and you think I would learn
But I am not half of what I should be
I’ve been letting people down since I could breathe
And I know there is no one else to blame but me
I just lay in bed
As though I was dead
And I half wish I was
Simply because
There is no beauty in my letdowns
There is no cuteness in my pain
Something so easy that should take me minutes
Somehow it takes me days
My mind is my worse enemy
Just give me a sad song to match my misery
I don’t deserve the sunlight on my face
Is there a way I can be replaced?
I just sit in the corner of my room
Thinking of the people I accidentally used
If I could get up I think I would say
I never wanted things to turn out this way
So dear anyone I may have hurt in my lack of movement
I’m trying my very best to make some kind of improvement
But I’ve been failing for years
Maybe it’s better if I just disappear.