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Lying beside you in the candles glow,
holding my breath, lost in you,
my demons can't reach me here.

Your passionate embrace soothes the gypsy in me,
your sweet words crush my fears and insecurities,
you always find a way to move me.

Words falter at your smile,
my heart aches, feel like I'm losing my grip,
no I won't let go.

Paranoia chases me, doubts encompass me,
try not to listen to what they whisper in my ears.

How do I explain that the nightmares I have,
the reason I'm afraid to sleep is because they try to win,
they show me horrors that lie in the shadows of my mind.

If you only knew the reason I avoid everyone's eyes,
why every male makes me tremble and nervous,
wary and guarded, would you see me the same?

You know more than anyone ever has,
I've showed you that darkest part of me,
but what you don't know is how badly it weakens me.

Always locking the doors,
that little piece of metal and chain gives me peace,
yet scars my heart.

A knife always carried around,
protection, yet still I scream without sound.

I don't want to be afraid anymore,
to fight sleep because the nightmares lurk just out of sight,
so tired of keeping my guard up.

How long will I feel winter's chill,
force away the flashbacks,
try not to let you see that I'm still only human.

Something broke inside of me,
something I don't know how to fix.

You make me feel secure, innocent,
but when you're gone I succumb to the cold.

Letting you see my weakness,
my deepest fear, trusting you again with naked honesty,
feeling so fragile, crying silent tears.

I don't want to be a victim anymore.