I am unknowable to myself
Despite my best attempts
A telescope cannot see it's cogs
Though the universe be it's glimpse
But if I know you well enough
Perhaps I may better see
The parts of me that you love best
And then fix the blindness within me
Alone alone alone alone
The familiarest human song
And when you are not by yourself
You do not miss what isn't gone
A man on an ox
Searches for an ox
A man with a friend
Searches for a friend
A man sees a mountain
Then it's gone
Then it's back
Madness is my dearest friend
I shall not give him back
Oh how I love you my dearest love
I'm falling quite apart
Despair in the sandy knolls effåir
Gutd j5ji īœ clart
Will you ever hold my hand
You cackling unmade fiend
Hellish you are by circumstance
A friend a friend to me
I sing a song of suspense
A pocket full of pie
A million-twenty blackbirds
Fell from the sky
When the sky was opened
The angels trumpet sing
Now wasn't that a dreadful wish
Made by the king of kings?
By circumstance, I stood outside myself and found the experience strangely comforting. To be one, yes, that was the goal, to be one with the craziness in my soul, to be one with the incongruities and idiosyncrasies, yes. To be one with pain, to radically accept all that which I am, and I achieved it,
Only by stepping outside of myself
And seeing me as you saw me
And I love you, of course,
In that way that you love your friends
Drink with me, love of loves,
Drink with me till the world ends
Avant garde!
Riposte!
Despite the relatively calm
Despite the relatively calm tone of the lines, there is still an eerieness to this poem.
Starward