TRUST

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Depression

Hadn't I told you I loved you? I trusted you with my life?

Why didn't you tell me what it was?

I told my other best friend (female) the same thing about me,

How I believed you trusted me, now I know you didn't.



I was right, I can never trust anyone, now I wanna die,

Get a rope, tie it round my neck, and hang, either that or a gun,

I trusted you with all but a couple of my darkest secrets,

How could you betray me like that? betraying my trust is like killing me!



Women are so emotional, men do they even have feelings?

That's twice you've ripped my heart out now, once more and I die,

All my life i've been shafted, how could you?

After all i've been through, why not say?



You are nothing but the same as the rest, cold hearted,

One person I find like me, and they end up killing me!

Why kill what you like, sacrifice it, remove it from your life?

I don't know what to do, i'm just too confused.



How can I have been so foolish, to trust?

I know i'm angry right now, but i'm more depressed,

Or could it be hurt feelings? I don't know, I don't want to know,

Tell me again how I can ever trust you.



Making up lies, telling me them, now I know they were lies,

I just don't get it, I guess you never trusted me anyway!

The way I found out, that was the last thing I expected,

But you made me realise, you shouldn't be forced to say it.



Your name, inked onto my arm, how I weep when I see it,

My eyes, red, bloodshot, and most of all, full of tears,

Is this the end? or are we still friends?

You can only live in denial, or with it, I know, i'm like that too!



Not that you would believe me, oh no, i'm nothing to you anymore,

My heart bleeds, yearns, for you to return, do I let you?

Can I trust you? or more importantly should I ask,

Can you trust me?



I'm aiming this at everyone, some parts specific,

Like these following two lines are at my best female mate ever,

I'm glad I told you about it, you didn't make fun of me,

I trust you with it, I know you will keep it secret!



And I quote a child's movie next but hear me out,

"Trust in me, just trust in me" I never meant to hurt you through this,

I swear I don't wanna loose you! I still love you as a friend!

The closest mate to me, even if you're hundreds of miles away!



What is it that makes it a big deal?

YOU made me realise I didn't have to be scared!

My eyes swelling, red, puffy, from my salty, guilt tears,

I guess, I should have told you as well, but I didn't.



I wish you could have found out a better way,

My mind numb with fear of your reaction, I know you hate me!

You don't have to hide your hate, just bloody well tell me!

I'm going to go away from you, your life, your heart,

But remember, I will always have faith in you!

I wouldn't tell anyone else, you have my trust, use it well!

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I swear this poem was written a while ago, it is NOT aimed at any one, and if anyone thinks it is, and has a problem with it, then talk to me directly, honestly, i don't do that, you all know i'm not like that. (well my friends do anyway, or what friends i have)

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Thanks for trusting me babe, you know I'm always here. Keep writing, it's better than your other release!

Love ya!

Ruthy ;)