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Feelings after the move
Feeling abandoned
Unloved
Afraid that you never really wanted me
That I was a bad person
That I have lost my family
That I lost the best thing that ever happened to me
That I lost the one thing I always wanted; a family
That I was not good enough to be part of your family
That I have no reason to live
That I will never be happy
Betrayed because you walk away from me
That it was wishful thinking
Like I'm going to cry
That your love was a joke
That I will never have a real family to go home to during the holidays.
Like god hates me
Like the whole world is against me
That god made a mistake when he created me
That I am worthless
That I will never love myself
That I am too weak to go on
That I will never learn from my mistakes
That no one could ever love me
That I am not worthy of anyone's love
That I will die poor white trash like my mother
this is a very heavey emotional piece. When you feel seperated from all and all else ,step outside look up to the sky day or night and just watch for a while.You will note the calm,the unexpectations when you are looking,the honest tranquility.Feelthe peace,then go within yourself tell yourself if you could perceive the honest peace looking up then you perceive everything good of yourself irregardless of outsiders and realize you were given the opportunity to look up to learn from that moment....In short don't give up on yourself or others.....