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All I've known so long ago as a child is gone

The one place I've grown to love but hated for so long

My heart has been built up and torn down at the walls

I've flown so far away from God; straining to hear His call

Creating a refuge I'll just fly from like so many others before

Thinking this is what I want but not knowing what's in store

But I deserve to be left alone; only yearning for someone to call my own

To scream and just drop dead; this twisted obsessive sense of relief

Has all but respite my soul from such faithfully confound beliefs

I know that only God can help me now, but I'm not quite sure how

To get myself the help I need; I don't want it (if only I could bleed)

This thing I have become has been controlling me for so long

I've been it, it's overtaken my soul, and now the old me is far gone

And I just don't know where to start, my family needs me here

But I need to fly out of the nest and conquer all my fears

Stressed and no releasing strength to motivate me each day

God's on my side right there for me, but He seems so far away

I'd drown inside a frigid deep, with breath as cold as ice

Screaming shrilling sighs of relief as at last I close my eyes

Corrupting everything I was and stealing my own life

With a gun, with chains of steel, and with blood upon my knife

Slowly I fade into the true oracle of life; and finally I'm set free

On wings of refuge taking flight; landing on bended knee