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Last Poem?
I know I messed up.
I've already seen the results.
Sure, they weren't drastic,
nor were they mean.
But they were there...
No doubt, even now,
you seek to spare my feelings.
That's the kind of guy you are,
the kind I wanted for my friend.
But you're not interested.
I appreciate the attempt
to not completely shatter my heart.
If you knew how many times,
I've been hurt...by family,
by so-called friends.
One more time might have been
the straw that broke the camel's back.
I was surprised I was able to reach out again,
after the disaster last year.
You spared me that at least.
I guess I'm not surprised...
You have friends galore,
loving family too.
(Maybe I'm jealous.
Maybe I want one person to care about me.)
At any rate, you don't need me,
Not like I need you...
The feelings of loneliness
and despair
creep towards me out of the shadows.
Once again...
Wow this is pretty deep but
Wow this is pretty deep but I'm confused on why you would title it as last poem because just from this I can see you are a good writer so why would you want to give that up don't ever let one person make you feel like you should stop doing something you are good at and enjoy. I may have no room to talk as a lot of my work is depressing but I have definitely learned not to let others get the best of my ability.
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At the time I thought I had blown it with this guy I was trying to get to know. I prematurely panicked, mainly based on a bad experience with the guy before that one...an experience that left me depressed and guilt-ridden for months and months, the lowest I have ever been in my life. I am still trying to recover from all that, and frequently catch myself expecting things to work out the same way...and that's what I had done once again at the point I wrote this poem.