Maybe I Should

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A New Era

I can't take this anymore. 

Maybe I...

Maybe I should just 

slit my wrist deep, 

Watch the blood till I stop breathing. 

That's gotta be better than this pain. 

This pain inside my chest.  

Maybe I should make a call...

Get heroine at my disposal 

and end this piece of shit life...

Yeah... Maybe I should. 

I can't take this anymore. 

It's beginning to be too much to bare.  


             

Author's Notes/Comments: 

January 2, 2020

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SSmoothie's picture

Hey, get out of this bullshit

Hey, get out of this bullshit poor me and make some bloody changes! Writing this comes from somewhere. So just in case free spirited start acting like it, and if course you will because you're a Phoenix you need a down or else you can't come up again. But side note once you cut too deep there is no rising again. Get out go to a lake or a beach, a pool because large bodies of water are cleansing. Keep away from tv and net and soak up life and recharge. Peopke are counting on you in ways you haven't even thought of yet! Now to the poem, very powerful and draws a reaction. A heartache I could do with out so kudos for writing pain. Now give us the lovely joy! Co tight hugss 


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NF_Angel's picture

I always write my feelings

I always write my feelings down and honestly in February I was gonna kill myself. But God sent me NF. A rapper who's music pulled me through that state. Do I hate my life, yes I do. I never get time for myself at all. If I didn't have bad luck, I wouldn't at all. But it don't even matter anymore. I don't care too much about life anymore. But writing is my outlet and I don't write much no more, cuz it don't come to me like it used to....But when I'm really down and out cuz my depression is consuming me and drowning under the water with chains keeping me under, I'm gonna write stuff like this, cuz it's either I get it outta my system through writing or I'm gonna eventually just do it. I gotta lash my emotions out somehow, cuz if I don't then I physically take it out on myself or I take my pain or anger out on other people. Last year was truly hard for me and this year hasn't gotten any easier, honestly, it's been worse. Not everyone can make the changes they need to make to better themselves, cuz they got things that hold them back that they can't just drop. I just do the best I can. I try to be happy and I just do the best I can. All I can really do. It's all I know how to do right now. 

 

I finally got a computer, something I've not had for years and so I'm gonna be tryna write more often. Try to find my inner poet again, cuz since I lost that, I've just been lost....


*~I know I'm blessed, but I'm cursed to ~ NF*

Morningglory's picture

Not Fade Away

Quick! Look around for tiny things to be grateful for. Breathe that in... Slow long deep breaths. <3


 


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