I’m scared I won’t be enough
That I’ll wake up one morning
Amidst the gray toned walls,
Gripping your long gone warmth,
Unhinged from the last tether I’d formed
In my last desperate lunge
I’m scared of the hole you’ll have dug
All care gone, your wit turned to fruition
Your whispered, hopeful nothings
Falling as snow, beautiful, delicate lies
I’m scared of the impression you’ll leave
Heavy, unabated and unkempt
Ghosting the lights in my mind
Sunken in and deluded into brightness
But most of all I’m scared I’ll be free
Absconded of your presence
That you’ll leave me like the snow
All at once everywhere, then deliquescing into itself
I’m scared you’re not enough.
deliquescing
this word was begging to be born here, right here, eloquently melting the heart and eye and ear, like snow - allets