The sky is dark filled with gloom
My butterfly garden is withered.
Dreary smile replaced my perks
Fears and heartaches has haunted me.
Unfailing love not meant to cease,
Traced my silently bruised heart.
Perfectly made as a weaker vessel,
I find myself gently falling apart.
How great is my threshold of pain?
To my beloved i promised 'forever',
From the very moment i said "i do",
Cruelty assailed and buffeted me.
Darkened feature of a man, he is set
Betrothed to a seemly entrenched damsel
I vowed to compromise uncertainties
Oblivion to my own blissfulness.
Self-denying, i vested wholly to love him
Endeavors, heart and soul, i have devoted
His smile is my strength and happiness
He's the pillar of my flourishing future.
But his tongue cuts me like a sword,
His eyes burns like a fire in hell,
His strength is swift to kill in anger,
Thoughts have obscured and morbid.
A meekly sheep but a dreadful beast
A lowly servant with a dictator's mind
Very loving but a hateful, untrusting man
Conflicting persons inside him i find.
Yet i love him more for who he is,
Reared to toil so young and innocent.
In his mother's bosom he was deprived
So he thirst for undenying care and love.
Outcast he lives with painful tears
Curbed to shame, unsought in society.
Craved belonging he always needed
Heavens have heard, so fate sent me.
My feeble heart can only deem kindness
But scornful words just tears me apart.
My frail mind is corrupted and poisoned
I suffered through because i love him so.
Evil has won and claimed my beloved
Leaving me trembling on my knees.
In the verge of life and death...
I feared for my angel's precious life.
Storm trampled i was deeply weakened
Frightened little eyes are seeking comfort
From my innocent babe my strength sprung up
Lulled her fondly, now safe in my arms.
A new day dawned, my nightmare is over
My eyes are dried up and dead from tears
My broken heart is mum and mending
A better tomorrow is now ahead of me.
i'm choked here. i think it really shows the pain you have been suffering. your words convey it very well, beautifully written.