i don’t understand why i want to be hit
by someone who also pee on standing basis
when I am supposed to get attracted to the opposite
peculiar as it is i find myself in real deep fix
it all started one day when i saw a lipstick
cute color of pink drew me unto my lips
it matched so beautifully giving it life
like a rose bud in the garden of may
i posed and danced a lot in front of a mirror
as if i am to portray a queen in a castle play
laces and feathers delimited my sleek neck
clips and huts craftily fastened on my hair
i used to saunter through my tiptoes
stretched my leg high up on my head
i bopped and bopped like a true ballerina
my hip was so soft billowing in the marina
i am a he in the morning and a she in the evening
hiding in the thickness of my lipstick and make-up
the high heels i wore always putting me to imbalance
always on the look out avoiding myself to be identified
as the hands of time continues to turn around
I couldn’t make known this odd thing of mine
a transformation only close friends know about
so afraid of rebuff that had been my companion
it is not always easy to forever hide the real me
all that is me are in my closet, cosseted carefully
maybe God must have had a confusion on me
for what He really meant was probably a pretty she
is that what it really feels like?
It seems that the subject of this poem is more confused than God (LOL)