gathering the petals for the pail as I am
startled to notice my mind wondering towards
a certain man
a hubris of pathetic preoccupation
I chastise my heart for its seeking out
the distinct lines and curves of your face
a hint of something extraordinary peaks
a golden notion that I've known you
as cleverly as before
yet not nearly as fully as I could
subtlety was never my strong suit
a tenderness within prevails
I'm captured by the sunlight of your heart
bathed in that delicious warmth
I find today's shade without you
unbearably cold
perhaps I tell myself you will
arise in the morn to bathe me in
your warmth again
yet crushed in my own disbelief
I think perhaps not
I have made too much of you
and the day is no longer so much
as mine as it is yours to do with
what you will
and it is here where I notice
some quiet trespass of grace
a subtle change from a mere
looking forward to our next
exchange
to 'A Sudden Longing'
for that one moment that will
never come
and in that
tomorrow
she stands
ever the beautiful lover of grace
that she is...........................
(written June 20,2006 852am)