of you please don't think I am deliberately making a fool
around you I school myself arduously to appear so care-free and cool
one day soon I will provide for you in aid of my identity
a most useful and adequate tool
but until then, all my insecurities concerning the depth
of my innner most feelings for you will do better and duel
please remember what I feel and have felt for you is no
prank or cruel joke but the rarest and most precious
jewel
even though the very sight of you causes such aching
need in my gut to wrench and pool
loving you from afar is the only optional right of rule
but I promise you as soon as inner strength in me
prevails
from your sparkling sapphire eyes I'll happily remove
the wool.........
( written Nov 16,1991 am)