such a frightful feeling
my unwanted leaving of you
life on a path
I fervently now wish
would just speed up
so much churns
where only coldness used to lie
such aching can be so tumultuously
sweet
I wonder such silly things
like
how warm is your fingers' brush
upon my cheek
and how must your eyes appear when
they drink in my frequent grins
I live in a city of such quiet
preoccupation where you are concerned
I am captured in your finely crafted
image of self
only you are so much more beautiful
to me
the finest of rewards
for all my heart's previous
unpleasantness no doubt
hearth to the home I've built in my
head
your ability to share
assures me of oh so much
you will always be there
you will never allow me to cry myself
to sleep from loneliness
and believe such behavior to be okay
you will fight with me for the better
of us
and be a man I can respect and admire
and hope that my children grow up with
all those same lovely traits
all this knowing
screams at me
you're him
the one
the piece of me that I've longed for
so long to find again
so I must work
and I must work hard
to make this incredible dream of our
beautiful we
a flesh and blood
alive and breathing
reality
and I will
as I owe us that
but you must too
Just take my hand
never let go
and always follow through.....
(Sept 11,2000(9pm)
wonderful :*).