to dress up
in near angelic madness
must be an offshoot
of true sanity
jacked up and scared
standing at a desolate bridge
viewing the deceptive distance
of the uncertain crossroads
yonder ahead
a joy like bravado emerges
it hails from
remnents of elation felt
over the next bullet
that this particular boy
(he that my conscience for this moment
chooses to encompass)
does not have to load
in yet another chamber
of his already adrenalin over dosed psyche
knowing he can clean and command
this vibrating pipe that spits out the fire
of death
by and with his very own two quite ordinairy
hands
and his job of killing for the day will be
done
what must the scenes and acts
coupled with the smells and methods of war
do to the young fresh and impressionable of
society's ranks
is it for this faceless whom
that on this podium of purposed poetry
I have come to stand
so solemnly armed with my pen and words
ever more grateful
that I myself am
not such a boy or man
occupying the muddy boots
of a soldier's command
for all are but
SPARROWS
trapped in the tunnels
of the the raging WAR machine
fluttering desperately
and so anxious are most
simply to get to go home and
be safe again
this peak into the fear
has to be
one of many of war's
surreal realities
lived hourly by all combatants
in the thick of fierce battle
Melissa
(April 2,2003 (215am)
Editor's Note
This poem ends at "simply to get to go home and be safe." The final (bookending) lines should be inside the poem higher up. "safe" is the stronger ending. - slc