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I am alone and I must remain alone

Though my heart aches from holding on

Holding on to the hope that I will one day share love

Share the passions of my soul with another

My soul that is tainted with shallowness

A shallowness which I accept

Though I know that no one else can

If only I could I would wish it to be undone

But the darkness within does it run

Deep here in where no weapons of wisdom are

Breaking through the darkness of my heart

Hollow thought in a shallow river of hate and bigotry

I am not enough for any woman

Not one who I would accept

I cannot look upon an unattractive face, and find love for it

Although I know many attractive faces hide ugliness underneath the width of it

I must find the improbable myth

A beautiful girl that hides the beautiful soul

A beautiful soul willing to accept an ugly shallow troll

I must remain alone willfully I know

I am inadequate to and for all

No woman can love a monster after all

A monster born from two disasters

While one who lives to only gratify himself

The other only sees her life through wealth

A self-absorbed fantasy life as royalty clutched within a religion so hollow

I ask myself if I truly even know them

For what I feel it may only be insinuation

Or my instinct to lie to myself

Perceiving them as such monsters that smut

What death I do know is that which I want in my heart

I am too cowardly to reach for the dark

The embracement of death for myself

I will not make high sorrowful sounds

Nor utter something in a whining song

I deserve all that I get

I am unwilling to change even a little bit

I am like the monsters before me

I am self-absorbed, willfully tasteless, fat lazy selfish liar

I deserve of a life no higher

What awaits may be a scorcher

But I know I deserve the torcher

I am alone and I must remain this way

I have no friends too close to give way my dismay

For I can't take the embarrassment that they would weigh

The embarrassment that would follow with those who truly knew me

So I keep everyone at an arm’s length

I must know no compassion no love no strength

Not from anyone, I do not deserve it

I hold no love for any as I hope my heart runs dry

Only to become stagnant, arid and dry

No one looks up to me nor should they

I am dirt, unnoticed and giving no second thought

I am walked on by all

No other in this world is as self-loathed as I

And if there be such a person then for you I cry

I do this because I feel nothing but hurt inside

I cannot imagine that this could be any worse inside

What it is and has always been

I am alone and my heart hurts with in

I am alone and I must remain this way

I am alone and no one should care anyway

I am alone and no one should live this way.

I am alone and I am alone and I am alone…

… And I will die this way.