I don't know what makes me laugh more
that you said you cared for me
or that I believed you when you said it
but I also don't know which causes more pain.
I don't know what makes me cry more
the memories of you with me
or the vision of you with someone else
although through these thoughts there is no gain.
I don't know what makes me hate more
that you turned and walked away from me
or that I was stupid enough not to walk first
these ideas slowly drive me insane.
I don't know what makes me die more
that you moved on with your life
or that I let my heart be taken with you
I wonder who"s really to blame.
I don't know what makes me love more
that you said you were sorry
or that you cried when I said no
I know i'll never be the same.
"I don't know what makes me cry more
the memories of you with me
or the vision of you with someone else"
those rock! i am telling you everyone feels this when they lose someone:)
i know how most fo this feels babbies
its ok i am here for you :) call me anytime you have a bad day and just blurt out the words "ash i had a bad day" and i will be there for you :)
ash
Much Love
Ashley