Stumbling and shivering
Squinting and screwy
Alone with some familiar faces
Wanting warmth, attention, flame
Fuzzy memory, bare legs
Feet were aching so much pain

Walking back close and chummy
Led me up to his room
Mixed emotions stirring inside
Nervousness, excitement, everything alive
Acrid taste of beer and cigarettes
Spearmint gum to cover the complex

Deep, warm caressing kisses
Falling in love for a moment or two
Twin-sized bed in a messy, dark bliss
I became an object through my sloo
Nothing special just another name on his list
Hate that moment I choose all of this

Liquor drowning morals
Reasoning not there
Nothing but the heat of my soul
One thing leading to another
No emotions, no love
Unwanted pushes and shoves

Everything entirely uncertain
Sweat, kisses, pain, satisfaction
Holding me tight to make it okay
Inside I cried and didn't want to lay
I can call him a stranger
Nothing more than taking my pure

Innocence gone in that night
A secret I gave and that I'll keep
I imagined love to shine so bright
Wrong because it wasn't a treat
He can keep my virginity, keep my youth
A night I'll forget and erase the truth

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burkej1h's picture

i can

totally relate to this -- an equally horrendous experience for me

Beavis's picture

Nicely done

You balanced the personal and poetic very well in this piece.

SSmoothie's picture

Wish every teenager read

Wish every teenager read this. It's painfully good.

Don't let any one shake your dream stars from your eyes, lest your soul Come away with them! -SS    

"Well, it's life SIMS, but not as we know it" - ¡$&am

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