I watch as you walk
Across the street.
And I smile
Because I know it's me
You are coming to see.
I check myself in the mirror,
Then shake my head.
I'm being silly.
We are friends.
Anyone can see,
This we'll always be.
You knock.
I answer and give you a hug.
We sit on my bed
And chat.
That's all we ever do.
You tell me how I understand
Like no one can.
How I mean so much...
You will always need me.
You don't know how much
this means.
We are friends,
You tell me.
That's how it was meant to be.
I look into your eyes
The words on my lips
'I love you, my one best friend.'
They finally escape.
And once again, I hope
For you to say the same.
But you look away.
'I know' you sigh.
'You mean much to me...
Too much'.
You look at the wall
I know you are thinking of her.
For a minute it hurts.
We are friends.
You needn't remind me
That's all we can be.
I tell you that the same question
Was asked of me again.
'Are you and he...?'
We both laugh.
Imagine.
Just because we spend
Every moment together,
And stay up to all hours
Talking,
And it's obvious that
I love you.
Imagine.
We are friends.
Can't everyone see,
That's all we'll be?
It becomes late
And my roommate won't be back.
I put on boxers.
You take off your pants.
I lie down under the covers.
You shut off the light
And crawl into bed beside me.
'Are you okay?' you ask.
'Of course' I cuddle up next to you.
You play with my hair.
I move around
To hide those brushed away tears.
'I'm great' I say.
Thinking
We are friends.
Sometimes it just hurts
To remember that's all
We will ever be.
A thought provoking and psychologically meanigful piece, Annette! Friendship defines our yearnings and longings. It is friendship that makes us humane enough to be called human. Yet sometimes, we face the pain of knowing that we just can't take it further than that in certain relationships. But then, there is something healing, yet ironically sad about the following lines: "Wec are friends. Sometimes it just hurts To remember that's all We will ever be." Perhaps, the tearful joy of it all is to remember that such friendship is there. And that one can be enriched by the warmness and closeness of such friendship! Thank you so much, Annette! Ugonna