No music, no sights,
nor synthetic lights
Just me, with this pang deep inside
I twist and I turn
to placate the burn
The smear still remains, still resides
I tense and I grasp,
pen held in a clasp;
lips clenched in all but a smile
These scribings, these words;
the seen yet not heard
can't hope to excrete all the bile
This inkling, this chance,
this hope for romance,
held in bondage by my written thoughts
My love, mi amor
She's the one I adore,
now retreating from me with retorts
Don't take leave - don't go!
I just want you to know
that I wished not to rebirth the past
Give me room, give me time
to atone for my crime
Let me show you a love that can last
I prodded, I poked
till the wheel hit the spoke;
now I fear I've derailed this train
My muse, my sweetheart
Can't we make a new start?
For your hurt just bestows in me pain
Your discomfort, unease
weighs me down with disease
Penance for my careless offence
I ask and I plead
Through this ink I do bleed
for a chance to amend, recompense
Embrace and entwine
Your heartbeat with mine,
receiving and giving in trust
Through fledgling love song
the ancient, bygone
shall wither and crumble to dust
The last stanza is particuarly moving... somehow, you remind me of a latter day Charles Bukowski.
Which means, I'm in fucking adoration.