Oh this dilema. Again

I am struggling with wanting to quit. Did it before and remember what worked. With the previous experience I have convinced myself that I need to be without stress for this journey. Then life throws me stressors and I continue making excuses.

 

"I need three days alone in the woods."

 

Am I brave enough? I have inner demons who think I need tobacco to stay grounded. Yes, I could use all the tools I gained. But do I? No. I don't feel like meditating. I don't feel like doing the breathwork. I am not ready to face the healing from what I have been thrOugh. 

 

I have blocked my expression that I may not face myself. I continue to unheal addiction while healing the mind of unhealth.

 

 

 

 

Author's Notes/Comments: 

Going somewhere with this without going anywhere

Inspired by Randy Johnson

https://www.postpoems.org/authors/randyjohnson/poem/1078768

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Blame it....

Blame it on the heat-wave in your part of the globe... Be happy


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Yes

The heat wave. All the sun's fault. Usually we blame it on the moon. Not this time! ;p


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good luck,but it will work

good luck,but it will work


ron parrish

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Um

I might have to reread my own work. Will it work? The only thing that can is me my willingness to not. 


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allets's picture

Sugar & Carbs

are mine to struggle against for health. Daily bread pushes the numbers too high. Keep at it. Survival is for survivors. slc



Onyamaichi

 

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Daily bread

Need to make sure we get more of that. We are gaining much needed weight though. Food is good!


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