I've lived 68 years --- this past month jan/2020
It's been a long & full life for me
I wanted to make a list during feb / 2020
the month - Saint Valentine made famous
a long time ago
of girls & women I've met in my past
and through-out my life
by thinking & reflecting back now
those girls & women were just your
regular everyday people like all of us are
bearing still this life's heartaches & strife
but yet I believe even today feb / 2020
for whatever reason they came here
to this humble, little, blue & green round thing
this place we still affectionately call home
there are way way better places for them
to live & explore & even just roam
yet they came voluntarily to slug it out with the rest of us
for the next 50 to 100 years they came as volunteers
willingly knowing the kind of shape
this place called earth is in right now
I'm speechless all I can think of is holy cow
It's hard to believe someone ( anyone ) doing that
showing the kind of Faith & Courage
most of us came here to learn & earn our wings
like that old American Christmas Show back in the 1940s
but these girls & women came to this place
because they wanted to help mankind & womankind
through these troubled times that we're faced with
right now in 2020 & many years beyond
making no sense or rhyme
talk about kindness & compassion etc
for me It's hard to understand
that kind of Christian Caring & Bravery
it's a stretch of the imagination
for me at least & to say the least
anyways there are 7 women altogether
or 7 in total
listing from west to east
#1
there was a young girl/woman
I first met at the Georgetown Ontario
train station / GO station
and just by pure blind luck
some months later
we met again at London Ontario
She was with a girlfriend
I was with my then fiancee
I was stunned & speechless
I thought to myself was this really happening
or was this just my idiot imagination
playing tricks on me along with my usual dumb luck
I felt like I had just been run over
by a full sized brand new mack truck
there really was nothing left to say
I was totally blown away
her hometown Sarnia Ontario
her name ?
her age was 17 to 24
back there in 1976 or 1977 or 1978
her hair color medium to dark brown
her personality
happy, cute & totally innocent
#2 (A)
I met a nurse at the Whitby Ontario Hospital
long weekend may 1979 a different innocent time
when songs & poems & stories always came in rhyme
although I was in the middle of a nervous, stressed-out meltdown
I can still remember that whole weekend
was cold, dark, wet & overcast
I prayed it would be over soon
and quickly forgotten and left back there in the past
I do remember this woman / nurse she had dark hair
and she was lookin' real good - it was just nature's will -
life was unfolding even back then as it should
but to a young guy totally stressed-out & mixed up
& confused & thoroughly frightened --- as to where I was headed
somewhere or someplace I truly dreaded
later while passing thru several heavy bolted and locked doors
to me everything was off center back then
even the damned floors
naturally for me I did have
and still do have even today a problem with
claustrophobia
sometimes it can be as bad or as difficult
as a dog gone mad in late summer -- yes rabid
and full of rabies and terrified of water
with it's modern official name of hydrophobia
but during that time that one nurse just doing her part
on that day we first met my fate was sealed
my mind was now set and healed
and thank GOD for people like her
to me she was 3 things that came wrapped up in one human
a nurse & a woman & a SAVIOUR
any intelligent person would have to agree or concur
but this young woman all by herself
she mended my then shattered mind, self-confidence
& nerves as she picked up the many broken pieces
of my personality and softly yet gently
put them back together again
she had to be more then just a nurse or woman
at least someone that was a GOD-SEND
#2 (B)
days later
just by her compassion & not laughing
this same nurse encouraged me
to go back to my hometown
she said
your mind is healed now
like a wound that's been sutured
and not worry about life or the future
she said
Terry everything's OK
it will all work out OK
believe me I just know it will
actually there's nothing more to say
I just know it will all work out OK
#2 (C)
and that our small town there
just a ways away but not too far
along the 401 highway
passing many detours & byway
it sounded like a kind, caring & laid-back spot
with camping & swimming & stuff
during the summers
when the weather could grow sultry & hot
she encouraged me to overcome the tough times
think about those days when the sun really shines
and the whole park grows sultry and hot
almost like ripley's believe it or not
besides people will be pulling for you
once you get back home
always remember there's no place like home
wherever & whatever place you may roam
there's no place quite like home
I'll never ever forget her
for her moral support & compassion
even if those kind of things are way out dated now
and yes -- even kind of old fashioned
I'll always love her for those things
if only in a kind of or sort of -- long distance way
but I still feel she must have come here
wisely & modestly concealing the reason she came
for coming to this planet --a very coarse & harsh --
- dog eat dog kind of world - these modern days -
like the state we're in right now
for the most part -- it's not a real friendly place --
it's a struggle sometimes -- this continuous conflict --
this trouble right here and way way beyond
way way out there in deep deep space
but surely -- she must have concealed an ANGEL'S HEART
you would have to be blind not to see it
I knew it right from the word GO
I could easily tell
it was clear as a bell
#3 (A)
a woman with black hair -- early 1970s
working in a midway booth at our small town fall fair
with a winning smile & not a single serious care
she was so good looking it's hard & difficult
to find just the right words to describe
her healthy, soft, summer evening glow
that was her face and hair
and how my heart did start to melt
because of the way I felt
back there in early evening just after the sun set
and the last remaining daylight faded away
there are no words to clearly describe
that's all I can say
there under the bright yet soft midway lights
when the whole fairgrounds became enveloped in darkness
to say otherwise would be a lie I would later regret
and most likely confess
somehow she knew my first name and she said --Hi Terry --
I'll probably never know or understand how she knew
my name -- just one of life's mysteries -- I guess --
who really knows this kind of stuff --I DON'T --
yes with total and complete honesty now --I confess --
she must have been born into this world
as some former -- long ago SAINT --
someone or something along that line
all I know for sure is she looked good to me
she looked cool and smooth and fine
just someone or something along that line
and let's say if reincarnation --- is a real thing after all ---
and GOD I truly hope it is --- I'm counting on it ---
right here and now today feb / 2020
say if it is a real thing --- all hard work would be---
finished & done and the shop would be closed
and I would start having a ball -- as any future trouble --
would have passed --- and the world would now just be pure fun ---
let's say if reincarnation --- is a real thing after all ---
she was one of a kind --- they must have broken the mould ---
on that special day --- she was born ---
like that old nursery rhyme --- about the fall harvest ---
horn of plenty --- they called it --- or later dubbed it ---
the " CORNUCOPIA "
#3(B)
the horn of plenty ---- the motherlode--- & treasure ---
of every child's --- old fashioned toy chest ---
was a " CORNUCOPIA " of delight --- that fall and autumn harvest ---
as the world was won --- no more work or strife ---
just pure harmless fun --- for each and everyone---
her name ?
hair color black
height 5'4" to 5'8"
her age 25 to 35
her hometown OSHAWA ONTARIO
#4
a very young & innocent teen
but a grown woman now 50 years later
from BOWMANVILLE ONTARIO
her 1st name was lori
we first met summer 1970
I met her a 2nd time summer 1972
this sounds like a load of strange stuff
but believe me it's all true
I met her thru her older sister who I sometimes dated
lori may have been born just an ordinary person
but to me she was someone born with an honest and sincere
and tender soul -- stuff like this made my young single life
complete and whole even a halfwit or nut case
couldn't miss it her innocence & beauty were 10 fold
like the song says
it was clear & straightforward
and I knew from the start
'cause when I saw her pretty face
that was the last I saw of my heart
and although
I will always love her older sister
and that will never change even though it sounds
weird & strange
I still feel the same way right now in 2020
after 50 years have come and gone
and yes I'll admit it this point in time
my heart still longs for her
with this short poem and brief rhyme
but lori
was a cute, innocent & natural blond
she looked the very same as her 3 older sisters
they were all quite attractive & yes natural blondes
and they were all from BOWMANVILLE ONTARIO
yet lori was born an ANGEL and I knew it right from the start
'cause when I first saw her pretty face
that was the last I saw of my heart
I envy those lucky, young, single guys
over there along the 401 highway
in OSHAWA AND BOWMANVILLE ONTARIO
there's nothing left to say but what a great town
and what a great day full of beautiful natural blondes
each and every day
#5
a fun loving woman from Kingston Ontario
we first met on the long weekend of may 24TH 1972
just after dark at one of our many
Canadian Provincial Parks
the night we met
I was chewing tri-dent sugarless bubble-gum
when I told her it was bubble-gum
she burst out laughing
she thought I was nuts & hilarious
some guy in his 20s -- chewing bubble-gum
I fell hard for her -- I knew my fate was set
please believe me -- when I say that Kingston Ontario
has a lot of good-looking women -- down that way
they've always had a more advanced
and modern spot -- then most towns
their city is laid out & designed
like a miniature ( and now world famous )
TORONTO CANADA in mind
I know it was dark the night we met
but still -- I could tell she was quite pretty
from the city of SIR JOHN A MACDONALD
confederation's first prime minister
CANADA'S very first capital city
those were all good things
rolled into a cute woman's heart
and thinking back about it all now
48 years later
I guess that was just her way
there's nothing more I can add or say
and yet I must be true & confess
that night we met and dated
I was drunk and a bit of a mess
her hair color dark or black
complexion fair ? & light ?
It was late
age 25 to 30
height 5'4" to 5'8"
her name ? her looks ?
her personality was young, fun & care-free
as far as I could see
#6(A)
place CHATEAU - LAURIER HOTEL
DOWNTOWN OTTAWA ONTARIO CANADA
the capital city
late december back in 1973
ground floor -- side entrance ?
where all the women -- were young & pretty
up there in the capital city
cute girl/woman
working as the winter coat check attendant
she must have thought -- I was a half stoned
American Hippie Visitor --- but still a long, long, way
from San Francisco California U S A
and I must have lost my way
from their summer revolution of love of 1967
anyways -- it was still close to heaven
when the entire world was watching them
watching history unfold -- back during that famous
summer of love 53 years ago -- from this calendar year
at least that's what I'm told
but this very young OTTAWA PERSON
who was born many years later --- mind you ---
she almost had to have come to this place
with lots of kindness & grace
and yet still --- wisely concealing her ANGEL'S HEART
any normal person could see it -- right away from the start
because when she cast her innocent & magical spell
there in my direction --- and right at me ---
I could just tell --- way back then
I'd never ever be quite the same
I couldn't even remember my name
like the song by a famous woman singer
OOOOOHHHH please don't break the spell
it would be different ---- and you know it will ----
and the world will be a perfect spot then
a really great place to be
to live and grow in ONTARIO
and raise a family
and ---someday soon --- so don't ever give up hope
follow your heart ---- always hold on to the end ---
just stay on our side and keep being a friend
so GOD --- please be fair --- please say you'll swear ---
that you'll never let this cute young thing ---
if even by pure accident --- break her innocent & magical ways
back then -- during those magical and carefree days
#6(B)
like back during the 1st night we met
when she first cast her spell
with it's quiet & subtle & romantic beauty
way way back then and there ---
in my direction ---
and right back at me
back in late dark december 1973
her name ?
hair color medium to dark brown or maybe black
complexion fair, light, soft and bright
her age 17 to 21
her smile soft & chaste & child-like
her hometown OTTAWA ONTARIO CANADA ?
the capital city
where all the young women up there
were quite beautiful and just pretty
height 5'4" to 5'8"
her smile ( I simply have to say again )
rare & priceless & magical
an actual buffed polished stone or gem
I know I was tired that night we met
the hour was quite late
actually she probably was
5'4" or closer to 5'8"
#7(A)
THUNDER BAY ONTARIO CANADA
summer 1976
tall slender woman
sitting & waiting in a brand new auto showroom
of a new volkswagen dealership -- PORT ARTHUR --
side of THUNDER BAY -- and far away from the --
FORT WILLIAM side of THUNDER BAY
the volkswagen car -- the GERMAN AUTO MAKERS ANSWER --
for power and speed and style and lots of leg room --
the result of time tested and world famous --
world renowned -- GERMAN ENGINEERING --
on display there that summer of 1976 --
in that very same auto showroom --
at PORT ARTHUR -- THUNDER BAY ONTARIO CANADA
44 years ago in the past to the exact calendar year
if not the exact day way way back then & there
in that great town of THUNDER BAY
I may have walked into that very same brand new
volkswagen dealership showroom yet all, I know is
'cause when I first saw her
for me (myself ) it was love at first sight --
I thought --- was this a dream? ---
or had my ship finally reached port and at long last come into sight
right there in that dealership showroom -- no matter if it was --
the full light of day or the SACRED darkness of night
I kind of or sort of sensed -- that she was also hoping --
that I would say something -- to start a conversation --
just to sort of break the ice -- between 2 lonely strangers --
I simply didn't have the courage back then --
to speak to such a knock-out number like her --
especially at 10 A M -- on a work-day morning --
and cold sober at that -- there under the sun's harsh glare --
sometimes the frustration -- just doesn't seem fair
while some lucky dudes or salesmen come with the gift of gab --
and they can chat the day away -- with any and all women --
no matter how good-looking they are or happen to be --
I truly hope from this mental anguish --
I will someday be set free -- it's a struggle sometimes
that's very easy to see -- even for shy dudes like me
#7(B)
while most of us guys -- simply won't say anything at all --
when we're around members of the fairer sex
it almost seems like a spell or some damned HEX
or like some damned VOODOO thing --
that keeps a guy's heart
always on some idiot string --
anyways
she looked to me -- as if she was part of a
high class fashion magazine lay out -- I stressed
from NEW YORK CITY or PARIS FRANCE or MILAN ITALY
someone along that line I guessed
but actually & seriously now
I was looking for service & repair -- on that day --
way way back in 1976 -- way way back then and there
during that summer in PORT ARTHUR THUNDER BAY
there's nothing to add to it
there's nothing more to say
back then 44 years ago -- that have passed now
sort of or pretty well -- right to the day
to me she appeared to be a bit lonely -- like me --
and leaning towards an interest -- in meeting new people --
actually she might -- not have even been --
from THUNDER BAY -- herself -- hopefully we'll later see --
I really don't know anything about her
and thinking back about it today
and trying hard to be practical and realistic
and trying hard not to be silly or wishful or a bit sadistic
all I really know about her are these few words as follows
while trying to fill in the cracks and hollows
she was tall and slender model type
a totally beautiful dark haired woman
her name ?
her age 23 to 35
height 5'8" to 5'10"
her hair color
medium to dark brown or maybe black
charlie 777
feb / 2020
final summary for feb /2020
because of the shape of our world is in right now
during 2020 and many years yet to come in the future
I would say it to anybody and everybody
this is no time to start
"cooking the books "
or working with " creative accounting "
or any other shady deals
against your fellow Christian
or anyone at all of any sincere faith
no matter their name or color or beliefs
or creed or home country or race etc etc etc
this idea to "COOK THE BOOKS " or "CREATIVE ACCOUNTING"
will only make matters worse for all of us
like that tired old telephone scam or outright fraud
run by a bunch of crooks
as an office employee for about 50 years
believe me -- when I say --
I've heard and seen every trick
and every nut story right to this day
that ever came down the river
or across the bay
if I was really interested in money
I'd be totally pissed off
with he whole shooting match
BY NOW
charlie 777
feb / 2020
final closing summary
Autobiography?
I should publish some of mine. Broken up and posted in parts would be more easily digested. Did not finish. Will come back later and do another 100 words.