So Confused



I know this isn't just a whim,

though I don’t know what to do...

I just can't stop thinking of him,

when I should be thinking of you.

He's become quite a dear friend,

you have become my worst foe.

Many changes are sure to impend,

but what they are, I don’t know.

Looking back on days gone past,

the memories are far from great.

I always hoped that we would last,

but I know not to question fate.

Thinking of him gives me butterflies,

he brightens up my dreariest day!

I see my guilt reflect in your eyes,

still, these thoughts just won’t go away.

I turn to him when I need a friend,

for I've learned I can't turn to you.

How much longer can we pretend,

this love affair of ours, is true?

This is not the way I want it to be,

I still love you with all my heart.

But I know that you do not love me,

it’s obvious we’re growing apart.

I’m holding on, trying to be strong,

but I don’t think I can take any more.

You’ve hurt me, my dear, far too long,

for things to be the same as before.

The pain you gave me, I can’t erase,

for the wounds run so very deep.

I have all but fallen from grace,

and that price, for me, is too steep.

So if you care, dear, let it show,

start making a change today!

But if you don’t love me, let me go,

I just can’t keep living this way.....







By, A.M.R.

Author's Notes/Comments: 

I was confused when I wrote this, but not I'm not anymore....

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Wow that is a really awesome poem again it sounds alot like my life used to be but damn... great work. ~SARAH~