Why does my whole body ache,
but my heart remains numb?
I don’t feel like myself.
I feel like a phantom
of who I used to be,
and I don’t know why.
Pain has seeped into my veins,
and it flows through my moods.
Why can’t I be happy?
Why does everything
feel so passé, so who-cares?
I just want to smile.
Is this the process of learning?
Is this a part of growing up?
I hope it’s just a phase
because I can’t stand
this much longer
before it defines me.