I’ve become so numb.
I’m a miserable zombie
walking through life
with my eyes shut
thinking I won’t fall
into pits of depression.
And each time I do
I cry out for help
yet when He reaches
down to save me,
I reject his rescue.
Why do I enjoy sadness?
Is it that I want
for others to
feel sorry for me
or I want to find
happiness on my own?
It’s a search
that will never end
because I won’t
look where I will find it~
inside my heart.